Something happened by chance, but not good things,  Regarding this, i dont knwo how to solve it. i am afraid of it, i am scared of it,i lost my direction,i lost myself, i feel very mixed-up and puzzled with this things. How can i do? I dont want to tell others, i can not help myself now.

i dont want to do anything, i dont want to explain, i dont want to talk bout it,and sometimes i change my mind in a few seconds .not only because i am selfish,and never considered others feeling like your complaining ,but because of i am too blue to speak anything.

so what can i do is waiting,waiing the blue to fade,wait the sky to pale,wait myself to be enough courageous to be brave again .to brave in the hallow night , to face the fear inside my heart and let go of my sorrows ,though maybe i have no sorrow at all . all of my past ,though the past  may have been  veild  by dust.

i am thinking why once in a blue ,indeed .i shouldnot be upset by such a scene .
you went a way without a notice ,
i thought you should told me .
and we say goodbye smilely.
now ,
you are gone ,
the seat is vacant,
the spotlight is darkend,
which are all trivial and common in life .
i should not , but i did .
because i am mundane that i always haunted by lingering fear that someday what i hlod and i loved ,all of you , all of these to leave .nobody waits for me ,or even thought wait for me . how sorrowful and terrible it is .
the blue affects me in relation with you .
you told me sometimes my heart close to you ,amd my brains comtrol my action .
too complicated the minds .
i am afraid of you and feard one day you will leave me to your country .
maybe , the most fear is i considerded this is the nearest way to reach my dreams .
any way ,
life is a box of chocolates , you never know what flavor you will got next time .
life is a lonely and long trip ,when i am alone ,when i am painful .
anyway the wind flows ,even though my blue continious .